I'm sure you have been wondering... where the heck did Moderation Mama go? Well, life has been super busy and I had some computer/life issues. I'm using a computer that I purchased 8 years ago and suffice it to say, it's been on the fritz- as in, I could not even connect to our new high speed internet because my old junker could not handle it. I wish I could tell you that I'm now typing on a sparkly new laptop, however my thrifty husband was able to rig something up that has me back online-for now. Still on the ole junker. So bear with me.
So what's new with you readers? I have a few updates and random fragments of thoughts to share, so read on.
1. I accepted a new job! I will be a pre-k teacher at a local church preschool starting in August. I'm excited to get to be creative in the classroom again and work with the little ones and I love the flexibility that it brings- I will get off work by 1:30pm every day and can spend the rest of the day with my daughter. Plus, I get a paycheck- Yassssss! And my thrifty husband be like Yas Yasssssss!
2. During and after my most recent two rounds of ivf, I took some time off from my fitness goals. Mostly because I was afraid to "shake" things up, and then later because I was just feeling bummed and preferred ice cream cones to my usual group fitness classes. All those shots, meds, and hormones really mess with your head and waistline. So once I was finally in a place where I was ready to get back to my fitness goals, it was a sobering experience. The scale was not my friend, my skinny jeans were literally biting back, and swimsuit shopping... Well, yikes.
But, the good news is that I'm really happy and in a great place. I'm back at the gym and trying some new things. I'm getting stronger and I finally feel dedicated to work towards my fitness goals again. I'm also realistic and my goals are less about being the beach bombshell and more about my health and feeling good in my own skin, holla if you hear me?
3. I'm looking up and looking forward. I'm making an effort every day to be present and to be grateful for my precious gifts. I've had disappointments, but I've learned valuable lessons and I'm thankful for my journey. We don't know what the future holds for our little family, but we have faith and we will continue to take one day at a time because I have no doubt that there is more to this story. Stay tuned.
4. I want to say something about friendships and swimsuits (I told you I had some random thoughts to share). During this phase of life, friendships need to be convenient. I mean that plainly. As a parent of a two-year-old, convenience is up there on the requirement list for friendships. Once you become a parent, you do some life-house keeping. Like sweeping away the noise in your life. Some friendships are healthy and convenient (like neighbors and nearby friends with kids), others just add noise to your already stressful and busy #momlife. For example, you know the friends that are flaky? Like canceling non-stop or the ones that are constant drama? Even the ones that are too needy and want to get together on the daily? It's just too much noise. Momlife is honestly busy enough and crazy enough. Let's be honest, it's definitely loud enough. The last thing you need is friendships that only add to that noise. It's time to focus on friends that are dependable, respectful, and let's be real, convenient. It doesn't mean you can't have friends that live 30 minutes away, but getting together will just likely be less frequent. Fair to say?
This was a hard reality to come by for me, but it's been important for me to surround myself with positive friendships that are healthy, easy, and supportive. It doesn't mean you cut people out of your life, but a friendship may need to be re-defined to better fit into your life. I just think this is a natural part of this phase of life.
5. And lastly, swimsuits. I just want to say that how I pick a swimsuit these days has drastically changed since 2001. Well, a lot has changed since then, but mostly, becoming a mom of a two-year old has definitely posed some issues in the swimsuit department. Like the quick dive-in and exit-out of the pool to chase said toddler. Not to mention the lovely way that toddler hoist themselves up using your swimsuit top creating a major wardrobe malfunction for all the neighborhood to see.
So, my mind says comfort, durability, coverage, and practicality. And then my heart be like, "oh but that bandeau top is sooooo cute! Plus I'm only 33. And I'm a moderation mama, not a moderation marm." So where is the middle ground?
My goal is to try to update weekly- assuming my junk laptop holds up. I have a new banana bread recipe to share- crazy easy, self tanners to test, and an arm challenge to check out! Stay tuned-let's do this! Look up. Every day. Look. up.